Well, really I was thinking about how to write again because it's been a while since the last time I wrote something about myself. but, I feel the necessity to do it. I will take this as therapy.
I am living with my ex-girlfriend, yes it sounds strange, but we were good for some time. Initially, we were living in different places, our relationship wasn't so good, we finished a lot of times, and I wasn't as in love as her, because she wasn't fit my expectation in different ways. So before we started to live together we were planning to buy an apartment, however, the constant problems force us to separate ourselves, and as a consequence, I start a new life in another place.
the main problem is the sex, she has a condition, STD. she has VPH or human papilloma. it is an illness that affects mainly women, men can have it but it is harmless to them. I am sure I illness her because I was with other women while I was with her. and I know I am a fucking bastard. That was 2 years ago during the pandemic, and now she continues fighting to heal herself using different treatments, but any of them has worked as a result we couldn't have normal sex she continually has health problems then we can have months without sex, and that is affecting a lot. I have tried to replace her with prostitutes or give me pleasure myself, but I can't do it more. I need to stop this situation from the roots.
In my opinion, I did that because I do not feel full with her. I used to live a very different doing exercise, playing basketball, and traveling, I enjoy smooth marihuana, and I like to go swimming in a river, ride my motorbike, and go to parties, I have a daughter with another woman, eventually, I expend time with her (my daughter). I know I am not perfect man, I have a lot of problems, on the one hand, I would like to continue enjoying my stile life and on the other hand, she wants to stop me in some ways, for example, she doesn't want I ride my bike because she is fear, and I understand that, but why can't I ride alone? if she doesn't like don't do it.
Here I am again, well a couple of days ego I took the decision to get out of this fucking life.
